love my baby

love my baby
he may not notice alot when he is playing video games or with his friends when im with him
but when it just me and him he notices anything :)
i love my baby with all my heart even with his flos

Got it

got my g1
yay
im pretty good at driving who would of knew

Clingy Boyfriend

how do i tell my boyfriend that he is clingy. hes always around me. i love him with all my heart, he gave me a promise ring and i suppose hes just scared hes gonna lose me.

EEEEEE

School starting in 5 days YAY
95 more days sweet sixteen YAY :) G1
happy 1 and 5 months :)
read this summer great book
got a tatto looks awesome
had jordyn down for week
sadie was here for fireworks
fireworks sucked tho
my room is hot pink and black
big trip this year (4 place)in the summer(it is a school trip) going to be good.
typeing get fast and better
lost alot of wright ( after 135 now 115)
got to keep my grades passed 75 fir the next to years

i need you but only can want you

I want you, I want to hear your voice again
I want to hold you again
I want you here to take the pain away
I want to be with you forever
I want, I want
Truth my head says "want" but my heart says "NEEDS"
I need to hear your voice again
I need to hold you again
I need you here to take the pain away
I need to be with you forever
I need you but I can only want you

i pods HATE THEM

i pods
I HATE IPODS
SO MUCH
they have to many thing u can do
everyone haves to have one
it takes attention away from importin stuff like hanging out with friends and family and boyfriends/girlfriends
always have to have it with u
always using it (when u should be having fun with ur family,friends, boyfriend/girlfriend.
:S :@ :@ :@ :( :'( :'( :S :@ :( :( :'( :'( :@
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SSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM
UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU
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cheating

some people cause they do not get the attention from their parner.
sad thing is it is happening much often cause of video games, i pads, i pod, ects.

if ur parner cheats on u cause their not getting attention from u, that tell u that ur addicked to what is taking all ur attention.

thrid wheel

when ur with ur boyfriend and another friend, the friend feels like a thrid wheel but it is weird cause seem how for me i am the one feels like the thrid wheel not the friend. that does not bug me much. What bugs me is when people become a thrid to and i pod, video games, cell phones, ects.

i love you but

i love u baby and u do pay attention to me but when i should get it i donot and when i do it is the wrong time

really COOL thing online (Mr. Rolo)

i find this thing online but i do not know if it is right
Mr. Rolo can u help me see if it is right
.....................................................................................
English
hello Mr. Rolo ow was ur day today?

Portuguese
Olá Sr. Rolo, como foi o seu dia?
.....................................................................................
English
hello Mr. Rolo
how was ur day today?

French
Bonjour M. Rolo, comment était votre jour aujourd'hui?

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English
Mr. Rolo is the est TEACHER

Spanish
Sr. Rolo es el mejor PROFESOR

When I saw you I was afraid to meet you.

When I saw you I was afraid to meet you. When I met you I was afraid to kiss you. When I kissed you I was afraid to love you.


Now that I love you, I am afraid to lose you. I was afraid in taking the first step at love in the first place. I took a risk and chance, in loving you. Now that I got you it’s all that I ever think about. I’m afraid of losing you, now that i got you.

WENT

Went to the doctor's i was right (going back may 10)
need to go to eye doctor
computer at school messed up can not use drogon
go a PDA
far behide in school work
should be in bed by now
still not my normal self
have a surpise my friends and family lol they are going to be shocked and it has nothing to do with my grades in school
60 70 80 dance on may 30 money goes to cansor
may 8 wedding also grad dance but not and can not go
i am surpise no one has commented on my last blog post

UH-OH

mom and dad yelling and fighting
not eating as much can not eat food like used too stumick is is very mest up
have a lot of school work to catch up on
shopping maybe on sunday for a outfit for a wedding
have to see if dylan can go cause his dinner is already paid for and can not get money and no one else can go.(****)
plus can not see dylan until school ends
so hard (i have not gone 16 days with out him)
it is almost all i can think about
want to lose 20lb got to workout
so much problems
stress
i want to be happy again but everytime i am it just keep coming back
GRRRR F**** so mad and sad

stayed

stayed home today
feel little better not in as much pain today
went for a long talk today felt good to get out of the house

68 more days
i'm going to keep count until 4 are left

it is going to be hard for me so hard
love u pumpkin<3

only

today i only ate 2 grenol bar and maybe dinner
drinking a lot

not myself

not myself
tired hard to keep my eyes open i think it is from all my tears:'(
i am not talking as much as i used to, actually i have not talked at all inless i need to like only when a teacher asks me to.
i do not feel happy
i do not want to smile
i do not want to be at school
pain not going to be at school tomorrow
i am afaired to cry at school but it is hard to keep it in

he does not know

i am crying now and will when this comes to mind
looks like i will be out of tears before the day dies
i cried today
i cried yesterday
it hurt so much
but he does not know
how much it hurts me
he think it is teaching his step son a lesson but he is actually killing me

DON'T WANT TO

don't want to eat, play, go to school, talk, be happy
i just want to lay in bed do nothing.
lay in bed under the covers just lay there
cause there is nothing worth doing any more
just lay in bed like i am dead
no msn no facebook no friends no phone no going anywhere
just in my bed in the dark
like death

how could people do this

How can people!
hurt a child.
its not right.
when teir crying please stop.
and u don't.
u hurt them.
to get out your.
ANGRUER.
thats not right.
AT ALL.
you hurt them.
it stays with them.
FOREVER
it kills them inside.
they try to hide it.
they do not want to tell.
cause if they do they get in more trouble.
they just small.
they are little.
and do not need to live afaired.
SCARED
do not want to close their eyes.
can not stand up for themeselfs.
CRYS before they go to bed.
every night.
scaring, crying, pain.



Help stop this
save a little one
stop the pain before its to late

wish

wish he could read
wish he could see
wish he could tell
wish he could feel
wish he could know
the things he does not know about all this, about me how i feel

love

love can be hard especially when one partner goes to school in a different city thats is a hour away and both people can not drive. the one thing that makes a relationship so much more hard is not able to talk to one another. same with not seeing ur partner for like 3 weeks or longer. but the biggest thing in a relationship is talking to one another.









wish dylan could see what i write
cause he is at amethyst so i can not talk to him and tell him how i feel or see him
:( if i could talking to him or just see him for 5 mins once every week i may not feel like how i do :'(
but it is the best thing for him to be there. so i think i can wait for the rest of the school year